Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Live blogging
9:38 social security is going to be bankrupt within 30 years, think the guy who is 72 is really going to fight for it or the guy who is 47?how can we expect a president to lead us in the 21rst century dominated by technology that doesn't know how to send an email or work the google?
Live blogging the debate
9:30- John Mccain doesn't answe questions. Obama threw an elbow early... Beautiful. Why doesn't McCain get that enrgy independence is the key to rebuilding our economy?
Pre-debate thoughts
Peter - "Hey Lois, look it's the two symbols of the Republican party, an elephant and a old fat white guy who's resistant to change."
Another day with nothing from the ex. I'd like to think she's busy with work and trying to figure things out and is coming around to the fact we should be together but I'm not holding my breath.
But it was a good day at work. Best one yet. Shows went really well except for our producer being an idiot per usual. I just don't understand how someone can keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
Unless you're in love.
Another day with nothing from the ex. I'd like to think she's busy with work and trying to figure things out and is coming around to the fact we should be together but I'm not holding my breath.
But it was a good day at work. Best one yet. Shows went really well except for our producer being an idiot per usual. I just don't understand how someone can keep making the same mistakes over and over again.
Unless you're in love.
Yup, I'm a cavalier
So, they offered me the job and here I am in Virginia. I haven't been able to get online to post but I just download an iPhone app which let's me post.
Virginia is great so far. I live near a college campus so the scenery is pretty nice :) I live with 3 people and they seem pretty cool so far. Haven't had any major problems with any of them. I just got back from a trip home and brought back some delacacies from home. Comfort food you might say.
The girl that I had a kind of close friendship with for a few years and I met up and nothing really happened. We hooked up and the sex was pretty decent. Nothing to write home about. We're still friends but I doubt anything further happens.
Which brings me to the ex. One night out of the blue we were talking and she sent suggestive pictures. Later on we were flirting heavily telling each other what we'd to to each other and such. She told me to jerk off to her, which of course I did.
We of course did the whole dance about getting back together and she shot down the idea. I poured my heart out to her over the weekend to which her response was "you've gotta stop..." as odd as it may sound, the dots on the end of that gave me hope.
Later on yesterday she asked me if there was a huge game on tv but she had planned something planned for us or something planned if I'd skip the game... Of course I said yes. And to be honest, my eyes would never leave her.
Unless Ohio st. was playing Michigan :)
Virginia is great so far. I live near a college campus so the scenery is pretty nice :) I live with 3 people and they seem pretty cool so far. Haven't had any major problems with any of them. I just got back from a trip home and brought back some delacacies from home. Comfort food you might say.
The girl that I had a kind of close friendship with for a few years and I met up and nothing really happened. We hooked up and the sex was pretty decent. Nothing to write home about. We're still friends but I doubt anything further happens.
Which brings me to the ex. One night out of the blue we were talking and she sent suggestive pictures. Later on we were flirting heavily telling each other what we'd to to each other and such. She told me to jerk off to her, which of course I did.
We of course did the whole dance about getting back together and she shot down the idea. I poured my heart out to her over the weekend to which her response was "you've gotta stop..." as odd as it may sound, the dots on the end of that gave me hope.
Later on yesterday she asked me if there was a huge game on tv but she had planned something planned for us or something planned if I'd skip the game... Of course I said yes. And to be honest, my eyes would never leave her.
Unless Ohio st. was playing Michigan :)
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Could I be a Cavalier?
So, they offered me the job in Virginia. Maybe I'll be a Hokie. I think Cavalier better. But I'm giving my boss until Friday to find something out. I offered to give him more time but he said he wouldnt need it. I guess he's been talking to our business manager about me anyway. Said I'm a big part of the station. So, he's going to try and find a way to get me more money. I told him I wanted a pay bump. more hours and a title bump. So, I guess we'll see by this weekend if I'm a Buckeye or Cavalier
-M
-M
He doth returned
...Or something. Sorry I've been away so long. I've been having some computer troubles recently that havent allowed me to post.
Some big stuff has happened recently though.
On Friday I left for Virginia. I'm back now but I was there. I drove there Friday morning after working a double, so that was fun. Driving 7 hours through mountains after being up for 30 hours. But the drive was relaxing. I didnt smoke as much as I thought I would. And the scenery was amazing. I didn't stay long. Only until Saturday morning. I actually went for a job interview which went fabulously. I'm expecting them to make me an offer soon. Woohoo for directing every day.
I've mentioned Megan before, I believe. She lives about an hour away from where I was. Because of the abruptness of the visit she wasn't able to get off work and we didnt get to see each other. Which sucks, because, well, I really wanted to meet her. When you think about someone in the terms of a possibility of forever, and you're only an hour away from touching their face or hand or hair or what have you, and you don't get to see them, a little part of you makes your heart race and your skin hurt. My skin actually hurt on the way back.
But all in all, a good trip. I'm not sure I really want to leave Ohio. I really do like it here and my family is here. I'm not a person that likes change. Just moving out was crazy enough for me. Moving a 7 hour drive away? I dunno. I've been directing enough lately that if my boss would give me a pay bump and title bump I'd more than likely stay. Which means I wouldnt be any closer to Megan or Ani but at least I'd have the funds to have them come visit.
And just to be a guy for a minute. There's this new girl at work with dark hair and a soft voice who really has my attention. And sweet Jesus is she hot. I think her and another guy I work with have a little flirtation going on. Which is cool. He's a good guy.
So, that's me, for now. Still thinking about the ex. Still thinking about the future. Worrying about moving. Enjoying the time with my friends. It may not make a compelling read but that's where I sit. I'm going to try and post more. I see some steady traffic coming through here. I know of one blog that put me on his sidebar, which is awesome. I'm going to try and thank him for that if I can find it again. If you guys see any other blogs with a link to me, let me know so I can thank them.
That's it for now. See you when I see you.
-M
Some big stuff has happened recently though.
On Friday I left for Virginia. I'm back now but I was there. I drove there Friday morning after working a double, so that was fun. Driving 7 hours through mountains after being up for 30 hours. But the drive was relaxing. I didnt smoke as much as I thought I would. And the scenery was amazing. I didn't stay long. Only until Saturday morning. I actually went for a job interview which went fabulously. I'm expecting them to make me an offer soon. Woohoo for directing every day.
I've mentioned Megan before, I believe. She lives about an hour away from where I was. Because of the abruptness of the visit she wasn't able to get off work and we didnt get to see each other. Which sucks, because, well, I really wanted to meet her. When you think about someone in the terms of a possibility of forever, and you're only an hour away from touching their face or hand or hair or what have you, and you don't get to see them, a little part of you makes your heart race and your skin hurt. My skin actually hurt on the way back.
But all in all, a good trip. I'm not sure I really want to leave Ohio. I really do like it here and my family is here. I'm not a person that likes change. Just moving out was crazy enough for me. Moving a 7 hour drive away? I dunno. I've been directing enough lately that if my boss would give me a pay bump and title bump I'd more than likely stay. Which means I wouldnt be any closer to Megan or Ani but at least I'd have the funds to have them come visit.
And just to be a guy for a minute. There's this new girl at work with dark hair and a soft voice who really has my attention. And sweet Jesus is she hot. I think her and another guy I work with have a little flirtation going on. Which is cool. He's a good guy.
So, that's me, for now. Still thinking about the ex. Still thinking about the future. Worrying about moving. Enjoying the time with my friends. It may not make a compelling read but that's where I sit. I'm going to try and post more. I see some steady traffic coming through here. I know of one blog that put me on his sidebar, which is awesome. I'm going to try and thank him for that if I can find it again. If you guys see any other blogs with a link to me, let me know so I can thank them.
That's it for now. See you when I see you.
-M
Saturday, July 19, 2008
I don't know
Maybe this is just something I need to write down right now and I'll not feel this way again. I seriously doubt it.
The number of days I've sat here with this pain is getting to be ridiculous. I'm over you, I'm not. I'm content, I'm a basket case. This is a full body pain. Toes, knees, heart head. Especially head. I have my own little instant replay, just like on ESPN.
"Never put you down
Never pushed you away."
Which is the fucking problem. I never pushed you away after this was over according to one of us. I never fucking pushed you away. And now you're as much a part of my heart as the blood pumping through it. Once you do something for so long its impossible to break that cycle. And yes, sometimes it is impossible.
So why can't it be true that once you feel something for so long it's impossible to break that cycle too?
If this is so, I'm done for the rest of my life. You're it and you're gone.
I'm supposed to get a GPS for my birthday. Is it fucked up that the first thought was "I wonder how it would take me to Youngstown? Would it cut any time off my trip? Oh, remember that time I got caught doing 90 on the way to see her? And the one time she started driving down while I was working and I met her at home. And the one time when she came down so early that when she got there we made love and slept in each other's arms?"
You are the eternal sunshine on my spotless mind.
Without these memories you don't exist. Saved text messages from when I was drunk. Pictures of us I still cant bring myself to highlight and delete.
My heart breaks every month. 30 months. since we got together. How many hearbreaks have I endured?
Not enough. Because I still wont let go. I'm a crazy person and its not enough yet. I hold the tourch that's only got one ember burning.
This tourch will never will never have a flame and my arm long since went numb. But I don't care.
Because you're still the only one that makes it okay.
The number of days I've sat here with this pain is getting to be ridiculous. I'm over you, I'm not. I'm content, I'm a basket case. This is a full body pain. Toes, knees, heart head. Especially head. I have my own little instant replay, just like on ESPN.
"Never put you down
Never pushed you away."
Which is the fucking problem. I never pushed you away after this was over according to one of us. I never fucking pushed you away. And now you're as much a part of my heart as the blood pumping through it. Once you do something for so long its impossible to break that cycle. And yes, sometimes it is impossible.
So why can't it be true that once you feel something for so long it's impossible to break that cycle too?
If this is so, I'm done for the rest of my life. You're it and you're gone.
I'm supposed to get a GPS for my birthday. Is it fucked up that the first thought was "I wonder how it would take me to Youngstown? Would it cut any time off my trip? Oh, remember that time I got caught doing 90 on the way to see her? And the one time she started driving down while I was working and I met her at home. And the one time when she came down so early that when she got there we made love and slept in each other's arms?"
You are the eternal sunshine on my spotless mind.
Without these memories you don't exist. Saved text messages from when I was drunk. Pictures of us I still cant bring myself to highlight and delete.
My heart breaks every month. 30 months. since we got together. How many hearbreaks have I endured?
Not enough. Because I still wont let go. I'm a crazy person and its not enough yet. I hold the tourch that's only got one ember burning.
This tourch will never will never have a flame and my arm long since went numb. But I don't care.
Because you're still the only one that makes it okay.
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